I believe that Freud was more right than wrong. We all yearn to fuck and be fucked in return. We all yearn for Hypnos and Thanatos eventually. We dismiss the yearning for Thanatos because most of us do not live long enough to consciously yearn for that embrace. Most of us only grow weary at the end of the day and it is tragic that some of us grow weary of life while we are still young.
As the horror writer Shirley Jackson so aptly put it, “No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality; even larks and katydids are supposed, by some, to dream.” The struggle of life and consciousness obviously expends so much energy that the push to stay awake and alive requires a Newtonian response. Isn’t it natural that when we expend so much energy for so long, that we yearn for sleep? We exist when we are asleep because we dream and eventually wake. We want to believe that the existential reality of dreams transcends the mind…and I am here to say definitively YES or maybe NO.
It is interesting that Eros and Thanatos are so entwined. That Thanatos came to be depicted as Cupid. That he was often depicted with a butterfly or a torch extinguished. Desire encompasses life, procreation, sleep, and death. How could it be otherwise?
We burn brightly as a species, sleep’s embrace will come early.